Why is it that some things which you should be so happy for, they suddenly become a drag and instead of looking forward to them you dread it instead? All they do is weigh you down and make you feel very very tense. I know we mostly control these occurrences, because everything that happens in life can be controlled to the extent of how it affects you. Yet, what can be done? Constantly chanting "Breathe" is one useful technique or avoiding the object is another possibility, yet past experiences say that one won't work too long...All you can do is suck it up and take it as it comes, thats the unsweetened truth of reality.
I miss those days of life when everything was predictable, everything was calm and secure. For the past year or maybe more I've felt like I'm just all over the place..constantly racing to complete one task after another...trying to please one person after another..but the more slices you cut of the pie, the smaller the pieces become and at this point, no one slice is getting the best of my pie =/ I know there's a lot of me that i have to offer...and all this craziness is doing is spreading me thin and creating a tired, crabby patty monster I've come to be sick of. there are a few people and things i could name as culprits for the monster, but I've always disliked lame excuses for behavior so I'll keep to that.
Just smile and ride it out. At every moment, life as you know it is over because the fact of the matter is, its constantly changing whether you want it to or not.